But, I don't want to grow up.


As I fast approach my 23rd birthday I've been left with this empty feeling inside of me, and as I spot the odd grey hair on my head and wrinkle on my face let me invite you into the inner thoughts of my mind and what growing up and hitting my twenties means to me.


Lack of Self Esteem & Modelling?


Photograghy by KidCircus

For as long as I can remember I've always been somebody who lacked confidence in every manor of the sense. As a child I was extremely shy and would hide behind everybody just to avoid social contact. As I grew up it shifted to education, I was never and have never been the smartest kid in the class and this was reflected in those dreaded sets (which in primary school meant separate tables). As I moved on to secondary school it became mostly focused on appearance. As the majority of people do, I struggled throughout puberty. I felt awful, inadequate and just plain ugly to put it brutally.


Baggy Trousers


I've been stuck in a bit of a fashion rut recently. Not knowing quite what my style is or the direction in which I am heading. Of course this all sounds rather dramatic in a world in actual problems but this does leave me feeling rather 'blehh'. Fashion has always been a form of identity for me, matching outfits and colours to my moods, interests and general feelings it became a way to express myself. I have never been one to intentionally follow trends but even still, I'm not sure what my sense of style is or where it fits in a sea of gorgeous fashion bloggers.

None the less, I did manage to pair some pieces together which I was quite happy with. I took my beautiful cream roll neck jumper from Urban Outfitters with some LOTD frill waist trousers and my new ASOS patchwork faux fur jacket added a pair of classic converse and pranced around Kensington. 


Pink Culottes


Believe it or not, I used to live in all black. Head to toe. Don't get me wrong, black will always be classic colour that you really cannot go wrong with, but I am loving the pop of colour my wardrobe seems to have at the moment. This easy outfit requires little to know effort yet somehow looks put together. These cropped culottes from Urban Outfitters matched with this Brandy turtle neck top, a pair of Nike Air Max Thea's and unique sunglasses and you are good to go.

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